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Bichameral Mind
05:37
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bicameral mind
one speaks, sing, write
one obeys in 4/4 time
sign away your life
8-5 for our pence
2.5, white picket fence
retirement and then we’re dead
is this all there really is?
Is this all worth this?
is it our purpose?
What is all worth this?
is this our purpose?
is this our purpose?
what’s it all worth?
is this our purpose?
what is all worth this?
goddamn idle mind
the battle between left and right
idle hands understand time
time escapes, rips away in the night
time it slips right through our hands
sand falls down an hour glass
roads diverge into a path
does it make a difference?
does any of this make a difference?
what's all the worth of this?
am I a hypocrite?
i want a suburban home
does that mean i'm a clone?
Nuclear Family
For God, and County
circle around the atom
mitosis mammals
is this our purpose?
what’s it all worth?
what is my purpose?
is my legacy worthless?
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2. |
Nostalgia Reboot
03:35
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times up
is that a good first line?
just like that nursery rhyme
back in 2001
the war had just begun
I can't adapt
it's way too fast
this spinning twirling world
nostalgias past
will make us cash
that's what we observed
there's no original ideas
is this derivative of everything I fear
is our future so banal
that we're clinging to all that's ancestral
I give up
on writing these new songs
my voice will soon be gone
heard by no one
give them what they want
we can't adapt
we just react
to what we see and scroll
I miss the days
when it was safe
a pre-pandemic world
we turn to dangerous ideas
a collective consciousness that is riddled with fear
does everyone feel so small
does every one of us feel so trivial?
nostalgia turns to hate
made this year like 1968
the danger of "let's make our country great"
each generation yearns for something more
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3. |
All Their Love
04:54
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Mother is there any grace in this world today?
Brother will you send me a card while you’re half a world away
can’t forget all the scars from when we were kids
we grew up finding ways to forget all of it
Father are you aware of your selfish ways?
maybe if you listened twice as much as what you say
and I know you sacrificed a lot when we were young
I can’t seem to rectify all of this love
I can’t let go of the past
I keep it pent up all inside this mess
do you know the mess you made?
all you’ll ever see is what you gave
Brother why are you in that room all by yourself?
don’t you know that you’re the cause of your own private hell
and you shy away from a picture that’s not worth
with a family that you see as the enemy since birth
Brother why do you sit all quiet there like me?
is it all that we witnessed when you were small like me
now it feels sometimes like you’re a stranger
I worry all you keep inside will be your own danger
I’m holding on to what you did
to the way you treated us when we were kids
there’s so much that you don’t know
I guess you’ll have to reap what you’ve sown
There’s so much that you don't even know
I will take this to my grave
all the things I know Ill never say
And now you want me to be your son
Where were you then with all this love?
I wish I could accept all their love
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4. |
Keep the Door Closed
04:48
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keep the door closed
nobody’s home
gonna catch a cold
that’s what I was told
limit what you show
what do you know about feeling vulnerable?
putting up a wall around my soul
what’s left of my soul I want to keep
when you’re born with a curse
when you’re not last or first
they put you in the middle
self-fulfilling prophecy
doubt planted like a seed
your upbringings a riddle
when you anger is repressed
they say that you're depressed
they always need a label
I spent half my life
psychoanalyzed
but what of Cain and Abel?
sometimes I think of Plath
Anne Sexton and her gas
holding her glass
just like Kerouac
why am I so obsessed with Death?
why can’t I open up my past?
I spent my whole life trying to get away from them
I won’t be another
writers tragic end
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5. |
The Curse and the Gift
02:35
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is this what happens when you're old
still not doing what I'm told
a melody I wrote a long time ago
try so hard to be sincere
proliferate year after year
said this was a curse a long rhyme ago
the reasons we can't stop this feeling
wrenching, honing, this things owns me
you could say that it was fate
growing up on my street
I was just 14
you could chalk it up to luck
but it doesn't give it a fuck
it haunts me
it says "Matt, you have to create or else you are finished"
it's just not fair
some may say that it is a gift
a curse that can lift you
out of despair
the reasons we can't stop this feeling
wrenching
honing
this thing
owns me
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6. |
The City
04:12
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I’ve been running around the city’s maze
or i’ve been spending my days watching TV
while the lines on my face they crack and fade
am I too late?
is it too late now?
there’s no one around
they all went down
either North or South
either East or West
the city was best
when you were all in it
am I trapped in this urban nightmare
are they all trapped in suburban white fence
who’s to say what’s supposed to be normal
I don’t want to conform, am I mature
what the fuck happened to all my friends?
am I left behind?
it's so cliche
but i’m indifferent
because things are different now
yes, i’m jaded
and I gotta stop it somehow
Why can love be without a contract
is no offspring really that abstract
I don't want to leave the city
like everyone else to start a family
I don't want to leave the city
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the first thing I remember
was being under the table with all of it's legs
or the cradle I saw as a cage
"is that why you have all this rage?"
past memories of infancy
I must admit my privilege
a stroke of luck to grow up on that street
the must stuck with me
a construct, a community
"is that why this made you the person you became?"
I should count my blessings
all the silver linings
the tragic twist of fate
all those years just hiding in my room just pining
it helped me create
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8. |
The Devil's Plans
04:36
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what they say isn’t accurate
from naivety to jaded
you don’t think it’s right to say what I want tonight
I stand trial for all my sins
it all starts where it all begins
I don’t think it’s right
omnipresent oversight
I put the past in a locket
I just want God to stop it
he can sell it for a cheaper price
I’m just waiting for him to smite
he is getting ready for a fight
strike me down with all your might
And he’s love addicted
ambivalent
I'm afflicted
idle hands is for the devils plans alright
let the record scratch and it begin:
Highway 61 Revisited
it’s Dylan all the way tonight
I was cursed when I was younger
they say “God’s Gift” but I had hunger
I was itching for a bite
waking up to my alarm
like my father, i'm a time bomb
clock is ticking alright
there is this thing inside of me
that I try to hide from me
but it likes to come out at night
I’m a demon
I’m villain
with the records that I’m spinning
it will turn it’s ugly head tonight
he’s love addicted
ambivalent, i'm afflicted
idle hands is for the devils plans alright
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9. |
Tommy and Matti
06:30
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It's always after they are gone
we grasp a photograph
In Memory but not Forgotten
It's always after they are gone
we learn things about them we didn't know
when they were young
You could of gone to Juilliard
Your vicious Old Man
man, he really seemed like he was a bastard
He took the money from your hand
he said "Forget about it" and walked away
That's what you told me
You made a sacrifice
didn't get what you want
you went to start a Family
so they could have a better life
You know I know that poker face
as you laid on that bed
as you look at your Family
and you wink and wave you're fine
I'll never know that sacrifice
I always get what I want
I'll probably never have a family
because I'm such a selfish fuck
60 years with your wife
gave up piano and the drums
I won't have Grandchildren by my side
in the end
I'm glad I got to say goodbye
He took a photograph in memory
but not forgotten
It was our final Christmas night
with all the family
the background played Frank Sinatra
A few weeks later you were gone
I hope that maybe somewhere
you're in another form with Tom
Wish I believed in an Afterlife
But I'll keep all these memories
and your soul alive
Now that all your pains gone
you will finally get to rest
Why do we lose everyone?
is this some kind of test?
We looked all over for her grave
We found her cemetery plot
We buried you with your mother
We knew that's what you wanted
It's not the same without you here
who's gonna tell us the truth?
You brought together the Family
there's just no one like you
I will always miss you both
I'll keep you close to my heart
I'll remember all that you taught me
Nothings thicker than blood.
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10. |
Patent the Universe
04:30
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we finally did it
we destroyed the planet
Mother Nature hates us
she’s finally had it
the Ice Caps melt and sink us
the airs so black it chokes us
but we can get a new one
it’s all a hoax
the President is on the line
DEAFCON 1, it is time
Red balloons are 99
hands on the codes
maybe we could escape though the multiverse
A new planet to inhabit in the universe
the Big Bang is Fake News anyway
the Earth is Flat we could sail to the end of it
a corporate rocket to fly into orbit
God will come down to save the day
but we’ll adapt real quick
put in your microchip
avoid the Nuclear blast
or the Pandemic deaths
we don’t believe government lies
we can find a place to colonize
we can travel back in time
before the war, famine, and crime
the scientists are on the line
but we’ve run out of time
party like it’s 2099
get out your phones
maybe we could escape to the stratosphere
the Liberal Elite left us down here
And we’ve run out of gasoline
the Earth is gone we could make the best of it
it won’t long before we kill the last of it
here it comes, the final tidal wave
I just want a friend at the end of the world
as the Nuclear bombs fall from the sky
Time and Space collapse in a line
and it’s only a matter of time
I just want a friend at the end of the world
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11. |
The Way Out
01:23
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12. |
The Laughing Heart
05:34
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underwater in the night
you'll be gone before it comes
lamb to slaughter
you're the first one in the line
you'll be gone before it comes
Cain and Abel
don't hurt The Baby
they were only having fun
we're mature now
out of the house
we can be like everyone
suffocated
breath is bated
you had better watch your tongue
underwater in the night
I'll be gone before it comes
there's no turning back
i'm on the attack
I'm stretching my neck
I've got to keep breathing
I don't want to drown
I want to be found
I can't just lie down
I've got to keep screaming
deep in my gut
I want to give up
I know that I'm stuck
and no one believes in me
in this case
I'm in a dark place
I realize my fate:
only I can save me
break the cycle of abuse
block that fist before it comes
i'm nothing like you
that's what I like to tell myself
Time Bomb, here it comes
hold my breath to count to 10
gotta breathe before I drown
keep breathing
I've got to keep breathing
I only know that I can save me
I'll be gone before the dark
off to find my soul and spark
in the morning sings the lark
deep inside my laughing heart
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Matt Collaborate Evesham Township, New Jersey
A solo project where I do a lot of covers, and originals that I write or collaborate with people.
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