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I think I recorded this in July of 2016, around that time. It was going to be the only open tuning song on the record but didn't make the cut. I put it on Soundcloud. It was about a lot of what was going on in my subconscious during that summer that was being uncovered. And how we must save ourselves. Just a weird song.

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I can't express myself, I'm too afraid.
I though I knew it all.
I moved back to the city in the Fall.
Only a matter of time before I blow it all.
I'm locking myself in this room on Saturday I want to be alone
I hear the summer sounds outside and the silence of my phone.

I'm falling down.
There's no one around.
I can't go back now to my hometown.

Everything's changed.
I'm now 28.
How could I expect things to stay the same?

I never dreamt how good it feels to hear a familiar voice.
Trapped in vanity, insanity, what's left to explore?
I try to stay present but the past fucks up the future choice
Every day mundane, the same, I can't help but to be annoyed.

I'm panicking.
Anxiety attacking.
I think I'm lacking motivation.

Self-indulging.
Gut is bulging.
Post-trauma stressing, not owning up.

Just cover it up.
All the scars.
Like Mother said: "Nothing is ever good enough"
I wanna be tough,
But I wanna scream.
Is this all a dream?
Like on TV?
What is reality?
The narrative is imperative.
The antagonist is attacking me.
I don't know his name.
But he looks like me at 17, except longer hair,
And naive dream without a care.
But a smokescreen to what life would really be.
Well Father, I'm finding out the truth.
About how no ones looking out for me, except me.
And that's the way I'll always be.

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from B​-​Sides and Covers: 2015​-​2017, released June 15, 2017

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Matt Collaborate Evesham Township, New Jersey

A solo project where I do a lot of covers, and originals that I write or collaborate with people.

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